I just survived my very first Night shift and I could say that I did well, except for the last hour wherein I am constantly slipping from consciousness and slumber. Heheh. But then again I am glad that this whole schedule would last for a month, and that would really help divert my attention from loosing Cory into something more positive. Yeas Im really devastated and sad that it turned out this way. But I cant blame anyone but myself. Well I just wanna thank my team mates for taking some of the load off my back.

Another good thing that happened during my shift was this new excitement and drive to become either a team leader or a css. I know it aint an easy task, but I hope that as time goes I myself would find the pieces and put everything together, in order for me to prove what my real worth as an individual.

Well got to go now and catch some shut eye...hehe got to go back again at around 7pm for my assesment. Wish me luck.

Im gonna move on. But that doesnt mean that I dont love you anymore...I leave you with one last promise, and that is to be at your service anytime you need something that others may not be able to provide.

It's been more than a week since I posted something here. Ok here’s a list of the things that had happened in the past 10 days.

First Day of work: Ok for starters, I already signed a contract with my new company: E-Telecare as a TSR for American On-line. I've been having my foundation skills training over at ICITE Libis and starting Monday, I'll be moving over to PBCom Makati for our client specific training. Hope everything turns the way I want them to be. But on the other hand I want to move over to the creative department. Nut I’m keeping my fingers crossed malay mo.

Goodbye Andrew: Our family friend Andrew died after the day of his accident. His remains were cremated last May 24. Rest in peace my friend.

Annual Antipolo Trip: Hehe well the usual Antipolo trip that me and my family have every year. Nagsimba lang and kumain tapos nagkaroon ng konting inuman sessions with the rest of the clan.

Surprises: I went over at OM (Ospital ng Maynila) last week to bring my sister's dinner to her. And guess what the last person that I expected to see there was actually...hello there. It kind of felt awkward but then again It doesn’t matter anymore. Coz there is someone in my heart; actually it’s a heart within a heart.

Odd Shifts. Sobrang madugo yung last three days ko. I had a 5am-6pm shift na sobrang nakakalanta. But then again I can’t do anything. Only consolation is that our company provided us with the amenities to make this monster shifts a little better by installing sleeping quarters and game rooms for us. Not to mention free Coffee, Hot Chocó and plenty of fruit juices whenever we have our shifts. On Monday I'll be starting my first Graveyard shift that would require me to stay from 9pm up to 6:00 am the following morning. Sarap diba?

Missing her like hell: Wala pa ring changes. I still don’t matter to her kahit na papano. Pero gagawin ko pa rin lahat para sa kanya. Siya lang ang mahal ko. Siya lang ang mahal ko wala ng iba. Sorry sa mga tao na nakilala ko. Mahal ko pa rin siya and it would take a lot to change my mind. I love Cory no one else. I’d rather stay single than not with her.

Songs to Ponder: Here sobrang satrap yung gala ko sa Eastwood City kahapon. Well una nag-concert ang Hale, and I got to get free tickets. I’ve seen X-Men 3 for free. I also got 2 New CD's from my friend Regnant. Sobrang galing kasi alam niya taste ko. Here they are:

1.) KALA-Manila High: Jeepney

Excuse me miss, mawalang galang naKanina pa kita kasi napapansin

Hindi na makapag hintay umuwing kasama ka


Just like what they say about them, this new band really made a very nice entrance into the music scene. With their semi-hip but still soulful compositions KALA could be considered as the next HOTDOG. With their down to earth subjects and uncanny image KALA gives back the "MANILA SOUND: that everyone almost forgot. Except for the fact that they kind of had some influences from P.O.T. and other similar bands, KALA has no way but up when it comes to their own brand of music.

With their debut single entitled Jeepney, one could not help but feel good when you start hearing the upbeat and catchy lyrics from this very promising band.



2.) Sitti-Cafe Bossa: Para sa Akin.

Para sa akin...


It's been weeks since I first heard this single. But unfortunately I always end up catching only part of the song. But when I woke up this morning I was very fortunate to catch the song 100%
I don’t really care about people telling me that mushy OPM songs no longer have a place in the music industry. Now everyone goes for the emu rock genre or the pinoy band lineage but for me simple melodic serenades still hold a big place in my heart.


Well that it for me this week. Hope you guys could also share some of your fun experiences. To all the guys form wave 61, all I can say is good luck for us. And to Cory, I do again apologize, but I don’t see any reason to stop loving you. Kahit ano pa mangyari.

Well what’s up guys?

I still feel very lonely. Well I haven’t heard from her for 6 days, and I really hope that this isn’t just a deliberate act of ignoring me or I hope she isn’t back with that fucking guy from las pinas. But then again all I wish is her safety and for our lord God to give her strength.

Well guess what I already have a new job. It kind of excites me coz I'm back to where I started from and that is Makati. I landed a job as a creative department director over at PB Com tower at Ayala, for E-Telecare solutions.

I was accompanied by my very gorgeous and cute cousin Kei. Afterwards we went back to my former company which is Solar Entertainment, to visit some of my former office-mates and to pick up some stuff for my dad.

We also got the chance to attend the advance screening of "Over the Hedge" (It's been quite some time since I watched an advance screening) and I say that it's kind of nice to watch an animated film that could literally make you laugh without too much slapstick comedy.

Unfortunately most of this delightful news was overshadowed by two tragic accidents that involved my uncle and a friend.

My uncle Monching suffered a mild stroke and was rushed over at UDMC. At least he is in a very stable condition right now. The other accident involved our family friend Andrew wherein he and his classmates suffered a car crash, which put him in a coma. I hope you guys would help me in praying for them, so that our Lord God may give their families the strength and for them the healing that would bring them back into health.

I still miss her like hell. Even thou a lot of people don’t understand, I still believe that she is the only person whom I could really fall in-love and no one else.

"Hope may not be the best virtue one could have, but definitely one of the strongest".

"Lo Te Amo, mi Corazon"

Wow 23 na pala ako. And Even thou napakaraming bumati and dumating sa bahay just to be with me on my birthday, Im gonna admit that it wasnt really the same. Yup the very person na gusto kong makausap the whole dayfailed to do so. I dont know if it is intentional or not, pero sobrang down ako talaga kahit na birthday ko. Yes I am very thankful that my family was there and most of my friends, but all I wanted was her to talk or chat with me to make my special day even more special. Pero walang nangyari. I waited day in day out. I guess non of my wish were meant to be granted.

Im not mad or anything, pero naiinggit lang ako kasi yung ibang tao nabati pa niya on-line and even wished them na yung birthday nila be a fine one. Pero ok lang naiintindihan ko siya. Di ko alam kung bakit ganon pero I guess this is just another test of my personality.

Well thanks sa lahat ng mga taong pumunta and nakibati. Thank you so much. And to my family salamat at naintindihan nyo lahat ng in-open ko sa inyo about what really happened before my separation, and thank you for accepting the truth.

And to myself a not so happy birthday ki!-Trying hard pa rin ako.

Well ano bang masasabi ko. I lost my phone last Tuesday while playing over at GBOX. Medyo masama pa rin ang loob ko kasi I really loved the phone. But then again it is alright. But another thing was more than enough to chase my bad days away. Sakin na lang yun. It may be hard or almost impossible pero happy ako. Super happy.


Pagdating naman ng thursday I was blessed to have two new sidelines to further keep my hopes of buying a new phone for me and an angel (well kung papayag siya). Medyo nakakkalungkot coz some of the good things don’t really last. It was more of a deja vu than a re-connection and at finger snap it's all gone. Not even a trace of how wonderful the last three days of this week was for me.

Well six days before my birthday and there is only one wish in my mind. But It's a close to impossible wish, but I am hoping. Coz hope is the only thing that keeps me alive and the only thing that keeps me going.

Wall advance happy birthday to the Biggest Jerk alive. And that’s me. Thank you for all the new friends, and those who were always there. I love you guys, but I love my guardian angle more than anything else in this world.

I’ve seen so many new moons and so many sunrise and sunsets. But nothing is more beautiful than the sight of your most beloved angel and her sparkly little eyes.

One wish nothing more....Thank you lord for another year