Well hello there people. It's really been quite a while since I posted something here on this blabber sheet. Ok lot of things had happened. Major ones, good ones, bad ones and everything in the middle. Well Dale and I are no longer together after 5 fruitful and not so fruitful months (but I am ok now). Well almost not a hundred percent. I guess that break ups is not really my thing. Its nice because it is the recognition of one's perspective that the other person or some particular reason does not coexist with yours. It doesn't necessarily mean that it is 100% negative but sometimes breakups are the only solution for you to realize and know where your place should be.

Bitternessis always tailgating the process of breaking up. The feeling is actually like poison being drawn out of the vein. I don’t want to sound dramatic but at the same time it is always tainted by emotions. Why? You spend emotions trying to make yourself the ideal person for your partner, but sometimes we get blinded and get too immature when the process begins. It isn’t easy, I know this very, but you tend to lose yourself. Yes I am a bad person when it comes to breakups. I warn you people don’t go into a relationship with me. I personally say that it is just a yin yang concept. The amount of love is sometimes overshadowed by pain that it releases a completely equal amount of hate. I believe it’s also a matter of which lineage or country you are in. Westerners could just go and drop anyone in an instant. I am not saying it is not painful, but at least they handle it a little better than most Asian people do. Most middle-eastern countries would kill if they catch their partners cheating or when they tend to separate with them. This includes setting them on fire, or chopping a particular piece of human anatomy.

Filipinos are different. Love is both a soothing elixir that gives life to one’s heart, or a paralyzing poison waiting to consume every bit of sanity. Well I wish that I would completely dissolve any inexcusable actions if ever I break up with someone again. You become this lunatic and delusional person, feeding on rage, pain and loneliness. You spend so much time thinking who is she with now, are they making love, are they kissing. You start to feel irritated when you pass by the places that you and that person used to to. It’s like constant Immolation. A blanket of scorching frustration envelopes your body day after day, minute after minute.

But to your surprise, one day at a certain moment, everything mellows down. You relax. Your mind relinquishes all those dervishes of negative thoughts. You see everything clearly and realize that everything happens for a reason. Yes everything happens for a reason. It may take as long as 2 years before you completely let go. But surely enough it would definitely be revealed when the right moment comes. One reminder, never ever get someone new for revenge or for a false reason of companionship. It’s bullshit. Being separated sucks enough for you, then why the hell perform it unto another person.

Another thing guys (and girls alike), breaking up is one way for that rift between you and the person heal. It’s not an overnight matter, and time will always play a factor when it comes to this process. You may hate each other or even do stupid things. Don’t imitate someone like me who gets hell bent sometimes, when the reality of the situation sinks in. Never deny or suppress your feelings. Instead of keeping them openly talk and let it ooze out of your system. Ask yourself if you are ready. Don’t cover up emptiness by broadcasting to the world or that you are now single and open for new prospects. Think and heal yourself, emotionally and spiritually. Find ways to cheer yourself up and keep yourself busy. You were able to live without them before then why not. Do not push yourself unto her circle and instead strengthen and fill your own with new friends or fortify old relationships.

Again it is a process and you have to get the courage to do so. Writing this article doesn’t even ensure anyone that I am no longer hurting, but then again I am willing to take that process. Breaking up doesn’t mean that it’s over for both of you. It could be a simple time-out or just a time off from the pressure of having both dynamic personalities. It is nice to long and yearn and even hope for that person to come back, but don’t forget that “futility” is also one word that might describe the end result of your actions.

Love yourself no matter what. Loving or setting aside a slice of affection for yourself is as important as giving it to someone. How could you love someone if you don’t love your self? Just remember love like water is good when abundant, but once it dries up everything dies.

As a parting statement love is risky and separation is the end result of an unbalanced or unsorted equation between 2 individuals. It doesn’t matter if it is a man-girl, man,-man or a girl to girl relationship. Love doesn’t recognize color or gender, only the synchronized tempo of two hearts beating as one. Thank you and I hope that you will come back again for more of my random ranting about life and everything in between.