P.S. (I wont apologize for saying all the things in detail here). It’s the reality, and everyone should stand for the truth.

I was about to finish my last cigarette, when I realized what a fool I’ve been. Things were nice yet the true meaning doesn’t depict the anomalies lying underneath this smile. I may have a hard time doing this, but I am willing to make my way through this ordeal. It may take a lot of effort and emotional fortitude before I finally get myself out of this situation, but then again I must.

I was glad when I was given the chance to be with the ghost for a couple of times this past two months. I t was like a dream come true. I told myself “hey, this is what I want and I’m happy that it turned out this way. My days were thrown in turmoil. Dazed and confused I searched for answers, but all it gave me was more questions. Yes I was in-love, but the more that I yearn for something in return, eats more of my sanity, than preserving it. I then took upon myself to completely break of this so-called make believe thing.

It was a very nice day when I met up with her. We had a very nice dinner over at Temple Bar and finished the day off with the old fashioned Starbucks coffee. During the course of our conversation, I could feel the animosity and coldness of her words (but I wasn’t mad). Then I finally realized that maybe I should start living my life a little bit outside of her shadow. I never thought that I would be able to utter the words “I’m Going to Stop Now”, but I did. I am not hoping. I am no longer reaching for that elusive “love “ that kept me going.

I am now by myself. Alone but not lonely. I won’t be waiting, but I’m always ready. IF she comes back then good, if not then so be it. It was hard, but it’s the correct thing to do. I just want to promise you Corazon De Guia, that I am always here never gone, but this time you may have to look or call out for me. I wont turn my back on you. I’m simply going opposite your way. You said that you’re happy, then so be it. That’s all I want to hear. I’ll let you and your boyfriend find your own way of happiness. I don’t know how he handles your relationship, but I guess everyone knows how I treat you. I wont comment on how much effort his giving. I’ll just look away and let you grow. I know your capable of handling the relationship so I know there won’t be any problems with you.

Now I can walk around with my head straight. Lonely but no longer sad. I won’t wait, but I’ll always be ready. Your always welcome you know that. I am no longer frustrated or insecure with him. I know what is capable of for you, and I no longer have to compare. I’m satisfied with what reality has. Go your way, I’ll go mine. The world is round, so go straight and we may find each other again. I am the ghost not you.

Corazon de Guia, I never loved anyone more than I loved you. And no one, not even the man beside you could tell me that he loves you more than I do. I’ll give away my pride and everything just to make you happy, but I would wait for the right time to do that!

Been thinkin' of you

Like I always do my love

These tears I cry

Cause the day that I feared

Is finally here, my love

And I don't know why

Refrain:

You no longer see

Your tomorrow with me

Now we could never be... So...

Chorus:

You go your way

And I'll go my way

You know I can never

Force you to stay

You won't be mine

You made up your mind

So just keep on going

And don't look behind

I'll always hold dear

The times you We're here with me

And I won't forget

All the dreams that we shared

And how much you cared for me

I've no regrets..

Refrain 2:

Though now all I have Are long lonely nights

Cause you've already said goodbye

(Chorus)

Bridge:

I love you With all my heart and soul

And I never thought We'd ever fall

I know...you know You know just where you belong...

Here with me, here with me

(Chorus)

Cause you don't wanna see me

Down on my knees

I'll be kissing my dreams away

Now all I can do Is let go of you

And pray that you'll

Come back to me someday