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Closing the chapter...Solace Fades....

<< Please play the Song of the Post before reading

As I begin writing down a new chapter in my life, I slowly ink away the final days of a 6-year experience that molded my own individuality in the face of this earth. A chapter filled with wonderful, memorable and mournful things. I stop and look back at the one thing that kept me going. A reason that took my soul to the brink of Insanity and Happiness.

As I recount every second, minute, hour days and years I cant help but be thankful for it had happened. I thank thee for the first message. I thank thee for the first meeting and our first kiss. I thank thee for the confidence you gave me. Thank you for the love we’ve shared. I thank thee for all the fights and arguments that made our relationship colorful. I thank thee for the perpetual bliss that we shared. I thank thee for the laughter and smiles we both shared. The Breakfast, lunches and dinners that we both feasted on. The Birthdays, Christmas, New years and funerals we both celebrated. The Monsthsaries, Anniversaries. The unforgettable second meeting and the romantic night after your graduation.

All of these things helped mold the present us. We may go our separate ways and It may be hard walking these path with new hands and feet joining us. But life goes a round circle and may our feet bring us back again. Friends, lovers, enemies? We wont know. But one things for sure, I’m keeping you in a place worth knowing and easily not remembering for some time.
As I slowly finish the last pages of this chapter I remove all my vows and promises given to yo, and let ourselves be equals. I wont push fate’s wheels against its will, but I would certainly make sure I am ready to handle unexpected things. Now as I turn the last page of our lives I leave one page blank. We wont know when will my second book begin. A familiar hand may start the first verse or somebody new. AS for me I’ll turn the pages for them and let another wonderful story be written.

Life aint fair but the pains and sadness forever makes us stronger and love more tender. We become better persons, wounded but togher. In the end the tables of fate would lay down new horizons and new chapters in life would give us a chance to be a new character or an old player in life's unending game!

Farewell for now dear Ghost. Things may have changed, but our would never fade. Saya Cinta Amu!

Sayonara

One More Time let me play the song you thought me how to love. It may not served it's meaning, but it did worked for me, for I have wished it would have been the one I'll be singing my entire life.

"Spend My Life With You"

Eric Benet(feat. Tamia)

I never knew such a day could come

And I never knew such a love

Could be inside of one

And I never knew what my life was for

But now that you're here I know for sure

I never knew till I looked in your eyes

I was incomplete till the day you walked into my life

And I never knew that my heart could feel

So precious and pure

One love so real

Chorus

Can I just see you every morning when

I open my eyes

Can I just feel your heart beating beside me

Every night

Can we just feel this way together

Till the end of all time

Can I just spend my life with you

Now baby the days and the weeks

And the years will roll by

But nothing will change the love inside

Of you and I

And baby I'll never find any wordsThat could explain

Just how much my heart my life

My soul you've changed

Chorus II

Can you run to these open arms

When no one else understands

Can we tell God and the whole world

I'm your woman, and you're my man

Can't you just feel how much I love you

With one touch of my hand

Can I just spend my life with you

Coda:

No touch has ever felt so wonderful(You are incredible)

And a deeper love

I've never known(I'll never let you go)

I swear this love is true(Now and forever to you)

(only for you)To you

Chorus III

Can I just see you every morning whenI open my eyes

Can I just feel your heart beating beside me

Every night

Can we just feel this way together Till the end of all time

Can I just spend my life with you

Can you run to these open arms

When no one else understands

Can we tell God and the whole world

You're my woman, and you're my man

Can't you just feel how much I love you

With one touch of my hand

Can I just spend my life with you

(Forever here with you)

Can I just spend my life with you

Can I just see you every morning when

I Open my eyes

Dancing my love away...

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I remember a very nice line from the movie “Shall We Dance”. I still recall the first time I’ve seen the movie. It was early February this year while I was celebrating someone’s birthday over at “TGI-Fridays”. It was with someone really special and I really did not pay any attention. Earlier tonight I managed to watch the movie in full and I felt a pinch when I heard Richard Geres’s response to Susan Sarandon’s question “Why did you keep this from me” (Taking In Balroom Dancing Lessons )? Then he replied with “I am ashamed of telling you that I am doing something to make me happy, when I have all the “Happiness” in the world with you”.

Yes I was also victim of the same crime. I was so much happy with what I had before, and still I looked for something that I thought would make me happier. I had all the extra time and capability of giving that happiness to that special someone. I don’t know, I kind of felt sad in a way coz I only have 6 more days to go for that “SIGN” to come. Things are rather complicated if there is only one person willing to give something a shot. Would I regret my decisions? No one knows, but then again somehow a part of me still clings or, something still wish for something that another person is not willing to go through.

It’s a constant “tug of war” of both emotions and mental stability. Things are better when they are a bit complicated. Sigh! Well I’ll just let the days go by. Whatever happens in the last 6 days might as well be the best for both of us. Pain causes separation but something deeper makes the feeling stronger.

So guys and gals if ever you have excess happiness or energy to make someone happy, don’t look somewhere else, the person who deserves it is just right beside you. Loving you and considers you the best individual in the world!

Now I leave you with the song I don’t want to fall in Love by Tonya Mitchell- Hmmm…kinda got stuck in my head after listening to it while on my way to work

I don’t want to fall in Love
by Tonya Mitchell

Who needs to feel that way

Who needs those words to say

Who wants to give their heart

To watch love fade away

Cause I made up my mind

I didn't want to know

Why should I find the love that isn't here to stay

I wasn't waiting

Until you came alone

And now I need you

To tell me where my heart belongs

Chorus:

But I don't want to fall in love'

Till I fall in love with you

And you showed me what my heart already knew

I don't want to fall in love'

Till I know the love is true'

Cause I need

You to feel the way I do

When I give my heart to you

I've seen the tears they cry

When it's time for goodbye

I didn't want to be the onewho's asking why

I didn't think that I would ever feel so strong

But now I know that I was wrong

Chorus

Now I believe it's worth a chance

To find the love to last

For all my life

Give me a sign So I Will always know this love is right

This love is right

Ohhh

Chorus repeated until end

Departure 2-Exile

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Hello it’s me again. Man I really had a hell of a week (Sure, it was hell!) Ok during may last post I was talking about saying goodbye and dramatic retreat from all of those "Getting Over Blues". Well was I wrong? Slight. Yes I ate some of my words but please let me explain.

I met with the ghost some other time again (whoever is reading this I don’t care about you fool!). It was nice coz in the end I still miss and care for the ghost, even if she has a "walking X-ray partner". Divisoria is a very memorable place for us and I’m happy that I was able to go there and shop again for myself (not for her...err maybe a little). No tension, no animosity that’s how a day should be at least for two people who had a very colorful past. I was never pushy and sentimental that time. Everything went smoothly. A friendly walk and talk and that really made my day. Screw the on-going afternoon heat and the stinky sweaty bodies you bumped with along the 168 and DV Mall. What’s important is that I was haunted again. Traditional Coffee and Chicken finished the day up, and nothing beats two packs of Dunhill lights to wade the day away. Romantic? Nah. It was a "friendly" date. Hmmm.is it. Nah just kidding you guys.

Well so much for it. Am I over her...almost or....heheheh keep on reading on future posts. Well financially I am kind of drained right now. Hopefully come January and February everything’s going to pick up again. Sigh I really got to save. One more thing, yes I do have a girlfriend but to honestly tell you guys it's not the same as before. Well for starters I started having shorter sleeping hours and lots and lots of petty arguments. Its not as if I cant manage it, its just that nothing still sweeps me off my feet. Yes I do care for her (I hope love comes in next). Call me stupid but I still cant determine which is which. Siguro mahirap lang talagang tapatan ang ibang bagay (Di ba Skeletor"). Yah she's pretty and everything, but that "magic" something aunt that visible right now. I still have 15 more days to go and If it pushes through then I’m bound. But if within 15 days nothing sparks up then I know whom God really wants for me. Sigh no more details. I’m secured emotionally right now, and everything may not be as smooth as I want them to be, but I’m managing everything one problem at a time.

Now people ask me If I am still mad at "skeletor". Hmm a bit. I hope she treats Cory better (Yeah alam kong mabait siya, pero Damn shed some effort naman and do something special. Talk fool, wag kang tahimik at tango lang ng tango. Kaya nga may away para maayos ang lahat. Buwiset! (Sorry Composure na ito!). Now gusto ko pa rin siyang makasuntukan as In walang iwas take everything na kakayanin mo. kaya nga ako nagbubuhat at nagpapa bawas ng timbang. Hehehe. Cant wait for that day na mangyari yun. Its more of testicular fortitude than revenge. Hoy balik mo Blog ‘
ulol!

Well that’s it for that other side. Well back on lighter things. Work is getting easier and easier, and I hope come February I could nail the TSR 2 Promotion. That would really help a lot. An impending re-shuffling kind of concerns me but I hope that I still stay with Vince or at least Shift Armstrong (We love you SOIC CHA). I have nothing against the other teams or shifts but hey they are our bread and butter. The team's kind of struggling right now, but hey were getting there. I would like to finally reward myself with something that I’ve really earned skill wise. And hopefully I could reward myself with a nice Nokia-N91 Music Edition phone come Feb. Were! But na lang di ako programmer (joke). heheh!

Ehem! One more thing, I’ve noticed that there is a big influx of really cute and pretty ladies from the last 2 waves. Here a lot of my floor mates are having the time of their lives just by looking and trying to talk with these little sisters of mine (akala nyo poporma ako no?...uhm.... hello there). Some noticeable names are Marichu, Tanya, Janey. Lych, Rexie (Winona Ryde of the Floor), Mel (My Big Sister) and of course Dolly. Well just a compliment to these ladies for really lighting up the floor with your charms and beauty.

At it's almost three and I have to go. Damn my moms going to kill me for going home late again (Buwiset kasi yang sweldong yan delayed). Well overall I just wanna thank "Cars' and" Cai: for being my new blog buddies here. Please feel free to visit my "Friends'" blogs by clicking on the links on the right. Now I leave you this wonderful song from U-TURN entitled "Hurting Inside". I chose this song coz I love singing this with the most beloved girl in my life....awoooooo! Hehe! Bato bato sa langit ang tamaan basag ang buto!

HURTING INSIDE

by U-TURN

There are moments

That I feel I just can't go on

Wishing that you were here

Oh how I wish

You holding me close to you

Wispering those words

I love you (I love you)

REFRAIN:

But baby you're not there

Like you were before

No words of love to hear

Can't smile anymore

Is it finally over

I can't wait any longer

Do you ever think of me

Coz baby can't you see

CHORUS:

That I'm hurting inside

All the tears I can't hide

Life is never easy

without you baby

I want you to know

that I'm hurting inside

The pain is deep inside (I can't mend it)

Wishing you would come to ease the pain

In my heart

Coz lovin' you just hurts deep inside

Empty moments

They just fill every part of me

Since you've been away from me

Give me a chance to say how much I care

Hold me close to you and let me through

REFRAIN:

CHORUS:

Always Here Never Gone!

Departure.

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P.S. (I wont apologize for saying all the things in detail here). It’s the reality, and everyone should stand for the truth.

I was about to finish my last cigarette, when I realized what a fool I’ve been. Things were nice yet the true meaning doesn’t depict the anomalies lying underneath this smile. I may have a hard time doing this, but I am willing to make my way through this ordeal. It may take a lot of effort and emotional fortitude before I finally get myself out of this situation, but then again I must.

I was glad when I was given the chance to be with the ghost for a couple of times this past two months. I t was like a dream come true. I told myself “hey, this is what I want and I’m happy that it turned out this way. My days were thrown in turmoil. Dazed and confused I searched for answers, but all it gave me was more questions. Yes I was in-love, but the more that I yearn for something in return, eats more of my sanity, than preserving it. I then took upon myself to completely break of this so-called make believe thing.

It was a very nice day when I met up with her. We had a very nice dinner over at Temple Bar and finished the day off with the old fashioned Starbucks coffee. During the course of our conversation, I could feel the animosity and coldness of her words (but I wasn’t mad). Then I finally realized that maybe I should start living my life a little bit outside of her shadow. I never thought that I would be able to utter the words “I’m Going to Stop Now”, but I did. I am not hoping. I am no longer reaching for that elusive “love “ that kept me going.

I am now by myself. Alone but not lonely. I won’t be waiting, but I’m always ready. IF she comes back then good, if not then so be it. It was hard, but it’s the correct thing to do. I just want to promise you Corazon De Guia, that I am always here never gone, but this time you may have to look or call out for me. I wont turn my back on you. I’m simply going opposite your way. You said that you’re happy, then so be it. That’s all I want to hear. I’ll let you and your boyfriend find your own way of happiness. I don’t know how he handles your relationship, but I guess everyone knows how I treat you. I wont comment on how much effort his giving. I’ll just look away and let you grow. I know your capable of handling the relationship so I know there won’t be any problems with you.

Now I can walk around with my head straight. Lonely but no longer sad. I won’t wait, but I’ll always be ready. Your always welcome you know that. I am no longer frustrated or insecure with him. I know what is capable of for you, and I no longer have to compare. I’m satisfied with what reality has. Go your way, I’ll go mine. The world is round, so go straight and we may find each other again. I am the ghost not you.

Corazon de Guia, I never loved anyone more than I loved you. And no one, not even the man beside you could tell me that he loves you more than I do. I’ll give away my pride and everything just to make you happy, but I would wait for the right time to do that!

Remember boy, make my girl cry and you’ll die and pay dearly for it.

Be a man; give her the care that she needs.

Love alone cant keep you together.

She’s not a regular woman; so don’t be regular on her.

Still no sakura or cherry blossoms around me. It would always be autumn or winter. I’m always here never gone. What mine is always yours, and what I do is for you. You are my life, no matter how you treat me. Be cold as the snow, but my love and care for you will burn even brighter.

Saya Cinta Amu Cory-You truly deserve this line. For no one could make me love. The way that you do.

Been thinkin' of you

Like I always do my love

These tears I cry

Cause the day that I feared

Is finally here, my love

And I don't know why

Refrain:

You no longer see

Your tomorrow with me

Now we could never be... So...

Chorus:

You go your way

And I'll go my way

You know I can never

Force you to stay

You won't be mine

You made up your mind

So just keep on going

And don't look behind

I'll always hold dear

The times you We're here with me

And I won't forget

All the dreams that we shared

And how much you cared for me

I've no regrets..

Refrain 2:

Though now all I have Are long lonely nights

Cause you've already said goodbye

(Chorus)

Bridge:

I love you With all my heart and soul

And I never thought We'd ever fall

I know...you know You know just where you belong...

Here with me, here with me

(Chorus)

Cause you don't wanna see me

Down on my knees

I'll be kissing my dreams away

Now all I can do Is let go of you

And pray that you'll

Come back to me someday

To be continued...

Third Contact-Ghost Whispers

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It was a typical day yesterday. I only sleep for about an hour the previous night and I was still droopy when I started my shift. It was a good shift. I was able to make 3 sales and that really boosted my esteem and woke me up from my impending slumber. By the end of the shift I finally decided to call up the Ghost and meet up with it. At first I was undecided due to the fact that my phone was almost empty. I managed to send out one message and crossed my fingers that we would meet up at the designated place. I came thirty minutes earlier than the specified time and I was able to down to sticks of cigarettes before I finally caught up with her.

At first the typical tension and animosity crept between both of us, but I know that this day was different. We ate at our favorite pizza restaurant and were able to enjoy the whole meal without having a stressful conversation. We went on and bought some of her supplies then afterwards we went to starbucks to smoke some more and enjoy some coffee.

I was very reluctant and was holding back until our eyes met. The sheer innocence in her eyes made me fall back to the days when everything was still all right. We tried to talk casually but sometimes something between us still makes us unique. It’s not love and its not even something tangible. It is something that only years of contact and experience can forge. For 8 whole months that was the only time that I was able to freely place my hand on her skin without any animosity or uneasiness. I was also surprised when she returned the favor. It was something small but I am thankful that at least it happened . God is very wise. He lets you piece by piece on the things you want the most, for in the end those who wait and persevere are not left un-rewarded.

As we end the day I painfully reminisce and contemplate on the things I did (refer to the post below-"Anything For You"). We again part ways and I am back to earth once more. I thought of one thing and you know who she is. I ask myself am I still afraid of knowing that as the sun shine and sets she still belongs to someone. But what the heck I am happy and nothing more could make me feel this way. I don’t care about anyone or anything. I love one person and care for her the most. I thank God for giving me these things. It may not be much, but I am willing to stick around as required. I thank you Ghost for you have given me enough motivation and for letting me return the favor.

I end this post with a very special reflection: You still make smile and make me feel wonderful. I love You as always and more than ever. Always here never gone!

For the Ghost:

Holding Back the Tears:

I kind of keep asking myself little questions

Like where do I go from here

I seem to keep loosing track of time and how long its been

Since I last had you near

Been a painful road to a door thats closed

Been a gamble that I knew I couldnt win

Been a lonely conversation to this photograph of you

In the mirror theres a sign I must give in

So Im not holding back the tears anymore

Tryin escape the heartache, tryin escape emotion

No Im not holding back the tears anymore

Yesterdays my memory reminding me of all the time

I depended on you

I used to enjoy spending my time on my own here

Watching the jaded people pass

Now here I am sharing their pain and their lonely tears

And walking a road of broken glass

Its a constant fight to get through each day and night

Its a war between the present and the past

And the face thats in your mind every time you close your eyes

Whats the reason, whats the answer, how long will this last

So Im not holding back the tears anymore

Tryin escape the heartache, tryin escape emotion

No Im not holding back the tears anymore

Yesterdays my memory reminding me of all the time

Been a long time since I heard your last goobdye

Still I hear it clearly every day and night

Whats the point in love when you have to give it up

Yet still you need it and its nowhere you can find

So Im not holding back the tears anymore

Tryin escape the heartache, tryin escape emotion

No Im not holding back the tears anymore

Yesterdays my memory reminding me of all the timeI depended on you

Anything For You...

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Hello! I kind of feel sad right now. I read someone else’s blog and I am really worried about her. Yes I know it may sound technical and simple, but I know that this girl is going through a lot right now. How I wish that I never did the sins of the past. How I wish that I were still there whenever she needs uplifting or motivation. I hope I am always there to ease the things that she endures. To comfort her after a long day.

I’ve put her on this misfortune. She should not be soul searching, or worrying about love and any similar issues. I should have thought of her first before myself. But now I am here to make up for it. I’m so sorry baby (I just missed you calling that, it's been months). I am basically teary eyed now the moment those words came out of my mouth. I’m so sorry. You shouldn’t be in pain right now, If only I cared.

Laugh at me or ignore me about this, but as promised I’m always here to support you. I love you very much baby, and you’ll know you’ll always be.

For this post I dedicate this very appropriate song. Read the lines and you’ll know what I mean. I love you so much. -Ghost

Anything For you:
By Gloria Estefan

Anything for you

Though youre not here

Since you said were through

It seems like years

Time keeps draggin on and on

And forevers been and gone

Still I cant figure what went wrong

Id still do anything for you

Ill play your game

You hurt me through and through

But you can have your way

I can pretend each time I see you

That I dont care and I dont need you

And though youll never see me cryin

You know inside I feel like dying

And Id do anything for you

In spite of it all

Ive learned so much from you

You made me strong

But dont you ever think that I dont love you

That for one minute I forgot you

But sometimes things dont work out right

And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find somone to please you

Somone wholl care and never leave you

But if that someone ever hurts you

You just might need a friend to turn to

And Id do anything for you

Ill give you upIf thats what

I should doTo make you happy

I can pretend each time I see you

That I dont care and I dont need you

And though inside I feel like dying

You know youll never see me crying

Dont you ever think that I dont love you

That for one minute I forgot you

But sometimes things dont work out right

And you just have to say goodbye

Glimpses of Autumn

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Autumn is considered by everyone as one of the most beautiful among the four seasons. It imbues the serenity and nostalgic feeling of winter but at the same time gives you that little pinch that make it extra special.

What and where have I gone through after a turbulent summer and a spring of self-discovery? Well here I am stable but still incomplete. How wonderful do god's playful fingers work around you. Giving you unexpected twist and turns. But hey I am glad that even thou they are surprising, at the same time they are very rewarding with the answers you ask about your life.

Well first of all I am very happy that I'm already given a "regular employee" status her at AOL. Well Six months of hard work had paid off and I wish to attain at least TSR LEVEL 2 Position or even CSS stature (expect Ram to start Bashing me As. Well its a long way to go and I’m enjoying work better than before. Cory and I are still very bleak as a couple but I’m still here for her. Well whets new with that. Heehaw. I’m patient now, and I enjoy it that way. Don’t you just like it when everything swoons your way without forcing it? But I am happy. A simple glimpse of her and smell of her hair makes me yearn, but at the same time feel satisfied with what am im getting. It is better than nothing.

Well, sometimes people wonder why can’t I shake her off. I don’t know either. Guys give me a break, I may look stupid or "martyr" but hey nobody’s' making me fall the way she makes me. Well I no longer care what he/she thinks. It’s something or a bond that makes me go for her, all the time. It's not as if umaasa pa ako, even thou masarap. Pero I’m glad that im still able to keep an eye on her. She might say that all I am saying is B.S. but hey I'll let actions speak for me. I love her yes. I may love somebody else in the future or not find anyone. But I know she's the no.1 girl for me no matter what happens. It would take a superwoman or even a goddess to make me forget about her or topple her position. Overall I am glad I was able to interact with different people and ladies during those times that we weren't talking, and I’m glad in the end nothing's changed. I am still madly in-love with the greatest girl I loved in my life. Don’t hate her please. I deserve everything that had happened and it made me think clearly and maturely this time around. I wont say anything about this matter with respect to her. I am still here for her whatever happens.

Now for lighter matters. Hey I am glad that I was able to re-design my blog again. As you’ve noticed you could again check most of the archive entries. A cleaner and darker layout makes the reader feel relax and a bigger and shorter box to come. I’ve also decided to make this blog both as an entertainment and more-interactive page. I already asked Lance to give assistance in setting up the multimedia jukebox (with play list) and I'll be adding other add-ons (PICS, BACKLINKS, FLOATER TAGS etc.) to make your stay worthwhile and would encourage new Bloggers in developing their own Blogsite. Also please disregard the past messages on my CBOX, coz I am having trouble logging unto my new one, so I have to make of my old one from my old blog. So just keep on posting guys and thanks for the support

In two weeks my sisters' going to get married and I’m glad that everything is going well and all the preparations are going on a planned. I almost went teary eyed when I helped my sister pack some of her things (she'll be moving out after the wedding over at Pasig in their new House). I can't believe how much I love her and you sometimes regret the times that you don’t see each other. But I am happy and envious at the same time. Envious of the fact that she’s going to be with the person she love the most, and I myself failed in doing so. How I wish one day I’ll be walking down the aisle with her (you know who) and tell her face to face how much I love her and how thankful I am that God didn’t took her away for good. And as the day nears I thank God for making my sister happy.

Now a little surprise. I HAVE MY OWN CAR! Well my dad just gave me our Box Type Mitsubishi Lancer GSR. Pero siguro di lang talaga ako Car person kasi after 5 mins wala na yung excitement ko. I need to have a new license by January so I can start driving again. Well good luck na lang.

Thank you again and I hope I can post the images later on. Thanks and Zzzzzzz.! Got to get some shuteye! Bye God Bless

P.S. I just want to congratulate My Co-Wave9 TSR’s. Were there and we’ll keep on moving up and forward, and to TL- Vince our new full-pledged TL we did it twice and we’ll do it again!

To Mel-Welcome to my Blog. It’s nice to have new Thomason Friends here on the floor.

To Ana-Lakas ng trip natin tsong sa Uulitin!

Placebo Effect

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Just got back from a very special day over at the “Shang “ in Mandaluyong. Guys I suggest going over at the 6th floor Starbucks and spend a time with your “very special” someone. Nice ambiance and the lighting make the overall experience soothing and relaxing. Now to begin!

Head Spinning. Feeling light headed. Almost a natural high! Wow! That was my initial reaction when I first had my nicotine high. It felt so good that I exclaimed “Ang Sarap Mag Yosi”! But then again it was temporary. Just like most of the things that you encounter. With respect to the emotional, physical and mental aspects of life. We usually indulge in this pseudo fantasies and realities, which give us a sense of satisfaction and completeness. But do we have the power to decipher which among these so-called “Placebo Effects” are real?

Lets begin with the basic situations:

Example 1:

Boy just separated with the love of his life. After enduring so much pain (which he himself caused after cheating on his girl) the guys finally realizes it’s time to move on and go soul searching (“hmmm that wasn’t a very good term to use). He then finds Girl no 1. AT first Girl no.1 seemed to be the spitting image (at least physically of his past girlfriend and he struggles shaking off mental hallucinations that both of them are the same girl (i.e. “I see you in her” effect). After finally mustering the strength to face his worst fears he finally realized that girl no.1 is the one who made him forget about his ghostly haunting. He was so happy and satisfied, that he got his sense of “caring” back.

He himself was convinced that this girl was the one that triggered that “letting go effect” slowly but surely he was falling in love again. It was nice, tense and exciting. Similar to a pre-roller coaster dip. Anticipating, hoping that nothing could go wrong. You have the whole situation under control, until the inevitable happens. Uncertainty kicks in and indecisiveness disrupts all harmony. What was once a smooth playing sonata transformed into a barrage of screeches and howls. You tried to make things right (well basically both of them) but in the end things don’t work out. Boy is misunderstood. Girl can’t step away from the shadows of someone (an enlighten knight maybe hehehe peace).

So to finally end things guy tries to step away and stop living a dream. A constant one. It sucks sometimes when people think that you ask something in return. Guy needs a respite from all of this s*^t! Being caught in this situation is something that other guys would readily reject, but for this boy it is something worth trying. It’s better to lose than be futile. It is nicer to fight for something and failing rather than do it with no certain results.

Conclusion. Guy provided space for the girl in order to let things settle down.

Example 2:

Boy just went thru a lot of hullabaloo concerning his love life. Months of frustration over failed dating and finding the correct person. Beforehand he was caged with the thought of falling in-love again with the one who got away. Stormed by vendetta and hate, it slowly consumed him inside and out. One day he decided to face his demons and confront his worst fears. Boy finds “the right girl” falls in-love and in the end he still end up being divided. He finally decided to let go of the one who got away and decided to pursue the latter. Everything was well but in the end it was not. He ends another chapter enlightened. Sometimes it’s worth to just sit down with another individual. Talk things over. But of course it is better when both of you don’t have that what we call excess baggage or other unfinished business. In the end either sila yung epal or ikaw ang umeepal.

Conclusion: Guy Faced Reality!

Example 3

Guy finally wraps up one of the most complicated equations in his life. Boy relaxes gets back at work and tried to sort one out again. This time it’s really complicated (well maganda siguro yung hitsura nung equation) coz he doesn’t want to have the kind of equation he had before. He started working on this new equation. Taking his time, doing the right steps, using the correct formula and finally realizes that it pays off. No unfinished business between them or in their bags. No overly romantic dates and less drama. That’s more like it. You ask more questions before doing your move. It’s clearer and gives more progress. You assess every step, every move and every reaction, and if your patient enough, then all of your efforts doesn’t go unheralded. Yes this boy is very happy right now. Thanks for a very good advice form his no.1 antagonist (his tongue is usually as sharp as his name suggest hehehe). Lower to zero expectations make the experience better. Things unfold the natural way. The more we ask and the more we wait then better things would come our way.

Slowly but surely this boy is very glad how things are working out, the last 3 days were fast and great. The boy made sure that everything was clear and that he or she was not just looking for another escape route. Coffee and a pack of Marlboro Ultra Lights Bridge a lot of gap, and the skyline over at the Viewing Deck of the Starbucks Shangri-La branch gave the experience a wonderful effect. And who says that happiness escapes those who seek it. This time I am playing my cards carefully. No more all-ins and bluffs ,just the facts. Win or Lose at least then game is fair and no one’s hiding any cards. I wont say “eto na” or ok na. Keep on doing the right things and malay mo….

Conclusion: Guy is Falling in love, for real...walang sabit

Well a couple of thanks for the following guys….

Lance and Ram-For providing humor and words of wisdom (crooked at some point , hehehe) and my monthly moniker.

Jesy and Sarah- For the wonderful contribution (the one who got away)

Caco-For the Siakol Lyrics!

Ghost and Ellie-thank you guys. For making me learn new things!

Wag Mong Isipin Yon Chords by Siakol, www.Ultimate-Guitar.Com

H'wag mong isipin yon

Hindi ka no'n mahal Tulay:

Alam mo nang niloloko ka n'ya

Pero nagbubulag-bulagan ka

Hindi mo ba napapansin

Nakekengkoy ka na

(same chords on 1st stanza mga bosing)

H'wag manghinayang don may mas babagay paIgala-gala mo lang ang mga mata

Tulay 2:(same chords on tulay 1 mga bosing)

At kung sa pag-ihip nitong hangin

Dama mo na ikaw ay napuwing

Probema mo't suliranin Aking aalisin

Koro:

Tumingin ka sa iba at iyong makikita

Yung di ka iiwan di na mag-iisa

Tumingin ka kung saan

Kikislap ang 'yong mga mata

At gugulong ka sa katatawa

Ha!ha!ha! masaya

'Di ka na mangangamba

Hindi ka na magmumukhang tanga

At kung manhid ka kasi mahal mo pa s'ya

Naku umayos ka marami pang iba

Repeat Intro, Chorus

Marami pang iba......3x

Confusion Post!

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Give Me A Break!
Well nothing much just wanna post a simple wallpaper I made for someonw. Ok mamaya na uli serious post! Thanks for posing for me Diane. Isn't she pretty? Hehehe! Wala lang!

I hate this week!

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The one that almost got away."

Courtesy of Jesy Jopio and Sarah Carolino!

Patamaan daw ba ako! Hahahaha!

In your life you'll take note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared comething special, ones who will always mean something.

There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with... and the one that got away. Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in theperson, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyong the little necesities of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it, without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you are with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become deal breakers simply because you're not rady and it shows, It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone.He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work, And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different , your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and want you want, and you've become ready because the time ha truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you called be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed , and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen yoiur marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but its alright. It's never nice to live with a "Might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then its different. What do you do if its not yet too late? Simple.. find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "One that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

Enduring Solace-WIth Beer and Vodka! Wee!

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Enduring Solace-WIth Beer and Vodka! Wee!

First of all Im excited coz I'll be coming back to work by tommorow morning. I got the go signal from my doctor a while ago and cant w8 to go on the floor once more.

Now back to some serious issues. Ano pa bang masasabi ko. The past 6 days was one whirlwind ride for my thoughts and emotions. This is what I call a "tug of war" effect. Treat it this way. May ubo ka kaya kailangan mong mag bisolvon kahit mapait. May tumor ka pero kahit delikado kailagan mong magp-opera. Di ba ang hirap. Bottomline sa lahat ng mga tao sa paligid ko magpakatotoo tayo. Hindi porke masakit hindi mo na aaminin o pangangatawanan.

Ngayon sa mga nakakakilala sakin, alam nyo na siguro kung ano ibig sabihin ko. Yes kinain ko mga sinsabi ko noon. Ang hirap kasi kung maglolokohan lang tayong lahat. So ako ang desisyon ko eh to take the challenge. Ano man hirap o bagay susubukan ko. Petty, pero totoo. Sigh. Pero ang totoo niyan masaya ako na nalilito.

At sa multo na dumalaw sakin, wag mo akong pipilitang mamili. Nakapamili na ako kaya sorry na lang. It's the truth. Maubos man ang mga taong magbibigay ng prayers para sa kaluluwa mo (ghost ka nga diba?) may isa pa ring Orc/Oaf/Troll na hahanap sayao.

Well di mo ako kaaway. Alam ko na dimo ako nakikilala tulad ng dati. Pero try mo lang,baka nagkakamali ka!

Thanks nga pala sa mga tao na nag post sa blog ko for the past week! Baet baet nyo naman! So mamaya na lang 1:30 AM. Babalik na ako!

One more thing. Para sa ghost may ginawa pala akong wallpaper. May message na nakalagay dun. Just click on the link to download and apply it as wallpaper temporarily. Hindi yun mababasa unless gawinmong wallpaper or ma zoom mo siya.

Respeto lang sa mga tukmol na mag da-download at pag tri-tri-pan (kahit ogag mga barkada ko lalo na si Lance di niya gagawin yun). Respeto lang!

So guys Hanggang dito na lang at ang bago ko nga pa lang national anthem nung nagkasakit ako at walang ginawa kundi uminom (thanks Vodka and Beer0 ay walang iba kungdi ang napakagandang awitin ng bandang itchyworms ang Beer! Bow!

Thought for the Day-"Let the Unfairness of the World, Keep You Motivated and Fighting".

Beer

by: Itchywowrms

Nais kong magpakalasing Dahil wala ka na Nakatingin sa salamin At nag-iisa Nakatanim pa rin ang gumamelang Binalik mo sakin Nang tayo’y maghiwalay Ito’y katulad ng damdamin ko Kahit buhusan mo ng beer ayaw pang mamatay

Giliw, wag mo sanang limutin Ang mga araw na hindi sana naglaho Mga anak at bahay nating pinaplano Lahat ng ito’y nawala Nung iniwan mo ako Kaya ngayon

Chorus:

Ibuhos na ang beer Sa aking lalamunan Upang malunod na ang puso kong nahihirapan Bawat patak anong sarap Ano ba talagang mas gusto ko Ang beer na to o ang pag-ibig mo

III

Nais kong magpakasabog Dahil olats ako Kahit ano hihithitin Kahit tambucho Kukuha ako ng beer at ipapakulo sa kaldero Lalanghapin ang usok nito Lahat ay aking gagawin upang hindi ko na isiping nag-iisa na ako

(Repeat Chorus)

Giliw, wag mo sanang limutinAng mga araw na hindi sana naglahoMga anak at bahay nating pinaplanoLahat ng ito’y nawalaNung iniwan mo akoKaya ngayon

(repeat ChoRus)

A welcome Haunting....

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Proven Wrong....A welcome Haunting

Hello Guys! It's been a week already and Im still sick with chicken pox. Yes it was just recent when i was infected by my officemate Eric (hehe dont worry Eric tigas kasi ng ulo ko). Well I've experienced a lot of things before going on my PLA (Prolonged Leave of Absence). I met up with a very unusual ghost from my past, It was haunting but at the same time very very soothing. It is the type of ghost that make you get off the road of everyday life. It was like this four years ago. But then again this time it's different. As much as I want to hold the ghost in my arms, it simply just wont fall thruogh me. I was sadden knoing that this time it was different. The Ghost to me to places and talked about things form the past. I wanted it to stay, but there are other things in it's mind. But then again I was glad. Cause it was the first time the ghost listened to my words. All the hate and pain was stripped out of my body. And all I could say is that I am willing for whatever the ever "Higher Power" has in-store for me.

Before we parted , I promised the Ghost that whatever happens I ill always pray and be on it's side. It was hesitant but a slight uncertainty in it's voice made me worry. Idont want to speculate, but I just pray for the best. I only told it, to always do the right thing. I also told that it deserved more blessings and prayers . I am pained that I am capabale of doing all these things for this entity, but I was powerless cause somebody else was tasked to do it. As we parted, my mind took two days to settle down. I am still cconfused, but this time I was able to handle it.

Things may not always come your way when you force it. But youll be surprised how fate swings it's favor on those who wait. Now who says I wasnt blessed...I am. As for the ghost always remeber, all I wanted is your eternal peace. If others cant do it...then there is always one person willing to join you or someone you can haunt for eternity. For you are my Kiang Shi---A welcome Haunting!

P.S. Thank you for everyone who sent their "Get Well Soons". To team Hyeprion, Congratulation Guys, and hopefully this is just one of the many achievements that the team's gonna attain in the future. I am climbing back and is hoping to join you again in a week. I miss you guys, And to the constant patrons of this blog, thanks for keeping my cbox filled with messages. Im gonna return the favor guys. Thanks. And to Ellie-Hime. Just follow what your haert tells you and evrything will follow. DOnt worry about me, I welcome your decision and I thank you for the privileges. Were still friends.

And as for the ghost....May Logic ka naman, at may puso din.

"Let all the infairness of this world keep me going and motivated...."

Somethings Never Change!

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"Some Things Never Change"

Remember how it felt when you first really fell in love. Yes most people fall in love once or twice. But there really is one that just wont let you rest. That irritating feeling that consumes you whenever you try to sleep, or when you find yourself idle, with nothing to do and your dog lazily taking a nap by your lap.

Ok. Whets up with me. I shouldn’t be talking about these things since I already closed a chapter in this book and made everything clear. Lets use one scene from one of my favorite series Dr. House. (I wont explain the setup so anyone who is familiar with the characters I say congratulations for you can basically decipher the meaning of this post, well for the others I’m' sorry you have to read on or leave a message at my cbox). In this scene "House" was literally left stranded in an Airport (due to some bad weather) and was forced to stay in the Airport hotel with their Hospital Attorney.

The Conversation went on a very nice turn when both of them came dangerously close from one another and the most memorable lines (This is Just My Opinion) from the series ran a cold feeling down my spine. The lines went:

You know what Greg (House), do you know how good Korean Curry is (I forgot the Dish Used). You like it so much that you virtually eat the stuff almost everyday in your life. Until one day somebody offered you Pasta. It gave you the chance to taste and feel the difference from the curry that you love so much. The same way you did with the Curry. You forget about the Curry for such a long time, but in the end you still realized how you missed and loved Curry. Then you tell yourself that you don’t want anything in the world but Curry. Cause you love it so much whatever happens.

Another scene that I would use was when Nairobi (Jada Pinkett Smith) and Morpheus (Lawrence Fishburne) went inside the Matrix to layout the final assault against the machine. When the Nebuchadnezzar went missing council of elders requested two ships to volunteer and search for the missing Morpheus and his crew. Nairobi was one of the Captains who answered to the call. This infuriated Commander Lock (Nairobi’s Fiancée) and when questioned about her decision Nairobi simply answered “Some Things Never Change.

Now what’s my point here? Basically people tend to change physically, mentally and spiritually. But there are things you treasure so much that not even extreme hate or anger could erase it. Just like what happened on “House”. She felt that she was having too much (this could work vice versa also people) curry. But in the end she realizes that she just loves curry and cant get enough of it.

Well sometimes it just hits you dead center when you feel this way. Call it martyrdom (according to a cute friend) or dedication/foolishness. But hey some things Never Change. And I’m glad that they don’t. Why Cause I’ll be living one big lie! Forget the past; forget whatever my friends or people say. Some things don’t change and I’m proud to say that my decision is still the same.

I want to find lost “HEART” and I’m going long term for it.

Thanks for squeezing the truth out of me. And I’ll do it again and again.

To God almighty, thanks. I leave everything in your hands.

To my friends and Family I’m sorry. This is one thing I can’t deny.

“Because some things never Change”

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Song of the Day!
LSS Ako today! Sobrang nakakatuwa!

Mahirap Magmahal Ng Syota Ng Iba
Apo Hiking Society

Mahirap talagang magmahal ng syota ng iba
Hindi mo mabisita kahit na okey sa kanya
Mahirap! oh, mahirap talaga
Maghanap na lang kaya ng iba.

Ngunit kapag aking nakita ang kanyang mga mata
Nawawala ang aking pagkadismaya
Sige lang, sugod lang, o bahala na!
Bahala na kung magkabistuhan pa.

RefrainI-dial mo ang number sa telepono
Huwag mong ibigay ang tunay na pangalan mo
Pag nakausap mo s’ya, sasabihin sa ‘yo
“tumawag ka mamaya, nandito’ng syota ko.”

Mahirap talaga ang magmahal ng iba
O, sakit ng ulo, maniwala ka
Ngunit kahit ano pa’ng sabihin nila
Iwanan siya’y ‘di ko magagawa.

Mahirap humanap ng ibaO, sakit ng ulo, maniwala ka
Ngunit kahit ano pa’ng sabihin nilaIwanan siya’y ‘di ko magagawa.

Iwanan siya’y ‘di ko magagawa
Iwanan siya’y ‘di ko magagawa
Iwanan siya’y ‘di ko magagawa

Pero Mahal ko pa rin Siya! Hahaha! Hirap talga ng Buhay! Ecnal Reply Ka naman diyan!

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Sa Uulitin Kaibigan!

Im very very infuriated right now. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kailangan pang magkahiwalay ang mga magkakatropa para lamng masabing and isang bagay ay gaganda o uunlad. Napakasakit mang sabihin pero totoong nakakainis ang pagbabago.

Una nalaman ko na mawaal na ang ibang kaibigan ko dito sa floor. Bakit dahil ililipat sila sa ibang department. Oo sobrang hindi ko alam pero katwiran nila sistema lang. So here we go. Sa mga kaibigan (Frank, Ged, Mike, Loid) kahit anong mangayari pare kaibigan pa rin kayong tunay.

Walang iwanan laging magkakasama pare! Thanks sa lahat sana magkatagpo pa tayong muli!

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Fear Factor

Well 2 days lang naman akong nagkasakit. And sobrang nakakinis. Well sorry for the fly and her queen on my cbox its not because of your post guys. Like what I said la na bang bago? Kantahin natin ng sabay sabay (Para ka namang sirang plaka....paulit ulit!). Unang una sobrang nakakasira ng momentum. Two more days fore week ending then you get sick....No. 2 Ok na ako about Ellie. Nagusap na kami and were clear. So kung anao mang damage ang gagawin mo eh either alam na niya or no use so sorry na lang langaw (tinawag mo akong kalabaw) ang cute no yung lanagaw ka date yung mascot ng milk gold!. No.3 Di ko pa rin alam ang result ng blood culture ko kaya medyo nakaka praning. Im still contemplating wether to put the laydown on one particular issue or mas matitimpi ng puso ko dahil di naman ako galit sa iba. Well itutulog ko na muna after ng shift. Well yun lang naman sa ngayon. Gusto ko pa mag post pero na miss ko lang sila Ranque at Achaval (Kahit na inaapi nyo ako....joke). Okies tama na muna ang birahan tonight. Im in a good mood and no ones gonna ruin it ano man sabihin mo! Die trying fast mouth. I dont want to be bad but for you I will. Dont go pick on leftovers if you want to make a name for yourself! Sorry birahan daw eh! O ranque Binatukan mo na naman Ako!

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Eternal Raid

A year ago I remember when Cory and me were also having the same situation. Everything is on the rocks; complication is the keyword to every situation that we do. I could almost feel the very same thing here. In fact I do have the power to either smite or keep away.

But I am not any Jerk. I’m not a rabid piranha who goes nibbling on a dreaded wound in order to show supremacy or even disable the competition. I am not a jerk. Id rather feels that I’ve loved someone rather than feeling guilty about me being the reason why two lovers got separated or departed.

All I can say is please take care of Ellie. I wont feel ashamed of telling you that in a short span of time, how much special she was to me. The problem with us guys is complacency. If we feel everything is stable, we tend to lose our edge, and slowly drift back into the shadows. How silly it is when you yourself read something about another guy's thought about your special one, then tell yourself "oops yes I do love her that much". Please recognition should not come from things that are external. It should come from you. All of this feelings and expressions should not come from another man's provocation or message, but deep inside of you.

I may not be a perfect man nor a very blessed individual, but I know when to step up the gas and make her feel as if it's always our time together. You guys still have each other and don’t give me crappy statuses as "its complicated and Domestic Partnership". Grow and mend things not make it sloppy as Jell-O. Geesh! I would exchange everything before to have a chance to make everything right and get her back...but I failed. You guys are lucky you’re still both at arms reach.

Enough drama and disregard all nuisance (other guys, girls) shut them off! To hell with them. It doesn’t matter if it's a friend or someone from the past just slam the door on them! Even me. Focus on one another and mend it without thinking of what others may say. It takes two to tango and don’t exchange partners, not even on a single step.

I lay my sword down and hope that you guys fix this as soon as possible. I know how painful it is for a man to loose the girl that he loved the most. And it's worst when you realize it late in the process!

And this is a very serious demand form me. Take good care of her or else! I mean it. I am not a fighter but I don’t stand down! Don’t be complacent. And for Ellie...always make sure to point the gun and shoot!

Saya Cinta Amu Ellie!

...As the snow passes away, I stood up holding my princess by the hand. I then carry her to a distant land where her prince awaits. I stabbed the prince thee by the shoulder waking him from his deep slumber. Telling him "Be-Prince-Like or the last thing you'll see is the tip of my sword". I slowly lay the princess down his arms, as I bid farewell to the glorious being laying motionless by his hands. I throw away my sword and slowly walk by the window...smiling. Thank you Princess for the "Once Empty Strider" has once again felt life. A sudden gush, but enough to push me through unto my next journey....

Sayonara Ellie-Princess! Always By the Shadows....Always here never gone.

Here's My Song For You!

Do I need A reason-A guy doesnt need anything more than the sight of the woman he cares the most drift along his eyes and make time stop!

Today when I saw you

I knew it was just like the first time

When you met my eyes

I came closeAnd I felt like the first time

To hold back my fear and feel you so near

I've never been this far before

To hold back my fearand feel you so near

I'm scared of falling into deep this time

Do I need a reason to tell you why

I'm singing you this song

Do I need a reason to show you that

I know where I belong

Whenever I am weary

I lean onthis feeling that I have

I am so much stronger now

Thankful, yes I amToday

I'll renounce them,the doubts and the fears

I've been nursing

I'll fly like a moth to the flame

and I'll feel like the first time

To hold back my fearand let you come near

I've never been this far before

To hold back my fearand let you come near

I'm ‘fraid of loosing and still I go

Well Does this mean im stuck with Jerome Again?

Sheesh!

Snowbound Princess

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My Snow Bound Princess

-A Refelcetion By GAngelesphi

For Elie-

As the sun goes down from the horizon, I see the sudden falling of the leaves. Cherry blossoms painting may path with the soothing colors of pink.

Paused and I wondered, is such beauty only seen thru this solace of moments. When will I ever find that Beauty that fully captivitaes both mind and soul.

As I continue my journey I see you walking form the horizon. As the winter snow pass my sight, you offer thy hand and beckoned me to follow. Was it my imagination or was there really a princess asking for my presence

And as I run through the deep snow, my heart raced as I laborly went for your warm soft hands. Only to find emptiness and nothingness around me.

As the tears rolled down my cheek, I suddenly realize that my princess was never gone. But will always be inside my heart no matter what.

I stood up, and there you were holding my head away form the snow, telling me that everything is alright.

Always here....never gone

Gian

MOB RULE

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Thru Thick and Thin

I never imagined that I would be inside this once familiar predicament. I've told you on my last post that I was once again able to find the right person whom I’m ready to take care and treat specially in the following days. It was a very wonderful moment knowing that there she is right in front of you telling her all the things that you kept for weeks. A special day that started with a certain smile and an endless exchange of thoughts.

An inevitable dawn that almost drowned my heart with the utmost happiness and fulfillment. A sudden move almost tore this moment out of its foundation, but was quickly mended and forged it back to strength. But like all other dangers in life. There was always a major shock after the tremors were felt.

Life or death. That’s the way I’m going to describe the situation. Yes I love and I know that this girl was not a mere result of longing or missing your ex. It wasn’t a feeling of having to have a girlfriend in order to satisfy your ego. It was a matter of seeing from that person, unique and uncanny characteristics that makes her really special. Elie I won’t be holding back anymore. I’m writing this because just like what you’ve said, you don’t want to go or even lose me as a friend. The same goes here. It's not them that run this connection. It is us. And I’m also afraid of loosing you. I am here Elie I’m here to finally live up to the promise that I gave you. I’m here to vindicate the honesty that you’ve asked of me. And I won’t let anyone steal us of this moment. Not a soul.

I’ve never crossed the line with anyone at work, and I'll never will. They can take away everything even the respect and pride out of me....They can talk behind my back and forever mock me, but it would take more than that to make me move or give out.

I promised you something yesterday, before you went for your class. I’m here and will stay inn the shadows just as you’ve requested. Well work it through I promise. Finish everything that you need to finish, and I'll still be there in the other end waiting for you...

It's been quite some time since I said this line...
Saya Cinta Amu-Elie

Guys please pray for us...so we can pass this storm together. Thanks for believing in me...you now who you guys are. An as for those who can’t seem to keep their noses to themselves...Die trying!

Hime-Princess

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Hime-Princess

When I first got to this Job, I wasn't expecting anything special (love-wise or relationship wise). Yeah lots of nice girls walking in and out of the busy "floor area". After failing on my first attempt I was on my way on becoming a full pledge Bachelor for years to come, until faith plays a very wonderful trick on you. You suddenly find yourself around someone whom you didn’t expect to have the same impact or influence in your life.

Very uncanny, she dominantly resembles someone who’s been associated with me for years. She sports the same spontaneity, childish glee and the ever-sweet nature that seem to evade me for the past year. Inspiring, yet convincingly forbidden, but then again being honest does have its advantages.

Should I continue folding or should I all in for the count. Nah. I am happy seeing her here. And I’m willing to check, in order not to spoil the moment. And to you “Mystery Woman” hope your radiance never fail to imbue me with the happiness you’ve been giving me!

Are You Cold?

Napaso Ka ba?

Wee!

Tiger's Strike Back!

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Animo Sto Tomas-Growling Tiger's Pride!

THE TIGER

TIGER, tiger, burning bright In the forests of the night, What immortal hand or eye Could frame thy fearful symmetry? In what distant deeps or skies Burnt the fire of thine eyes? On what wings dare he aspire? What the hand dare seize the fire? And what shoulder and what art Could twist the sinews of thy heart? And when thy heart began to beat, What dread hand and what dread feet? What the hammer? What the chain? In what furnace was thy brain? What the anvil? What dread grasp Dare its deadly terrors clasp? When the stars threw down their spears, And watered heaven with their tears, Did He smile His work to see? Did He who made the lamb make thee? Tiger, tiger, burning bright In the forests of the night, What immortal hand or eye Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?

It's been 8 years since the Tiger's Growl was heard over the plain known as UAAP. I still remember the good old' days when the ever bright colors of black gold, black white was still being waved all across the Araneta coliseum with some of the best Goldies parading across the the court. From the sensational sweep, the astonishing back to back and the very rare three-peat. With the likes of Rey Evangelista, Rudolf Belmonte, Siot Tanquincen, Rudolf Belmonte, Estong Ballesteros, Edmund Reys, Gerald Francisco, Dennis Espino and more, the tigers has clawed their way back as contender.

I still remember the last cahmpionship way back in 1998 when the Tiger's were ousted by a last three pointer by Dino Aldeguer at the cuneta astrodome. It started the Tiger's title drought of sort. * Years passed by and the players came and go and the ever-mighty Captain Tiger- Aric Del Rosario failed to bring the Goldies back in their former glory.

After a change in the Coaching Staff and after a complete overhaul in the Tiger's bench and front-liners, no one expected the resilience and ferocity that they displayed during the 69th season. After being seeded one of the lower tier players, the Tiger's even had a 2-4 Card during the first round. And when the second round concluded the sudden surge of the Tiger's hunger for winning re-emerged. From an individual's standpoint no one could expect the Tiger's to even survived the first round. With most of them playing 1-3 positions. The Tiger's main offensive behemoth "Cruz" made a big difference. The young Center Forward plowed thru the bests of the team's defenses.

During the final four we were even ranked no.4 behind NU and UE. With an EX-Champion and Powerhouse Teams (Ateneo and UE) it was an uphill task that the Tiger's finished with a bang. After disposing of the Recto Based warriors, the Tigers went on to forge a classic showdown that would go down the history books. With a heart breaking loss in Game 1 the Tiger came back Clawing and Biting their way, tearing the Eagles apart with an impressive 16 point beating of the Kalayaan based dribblers. Two days after the stage was set for an unforgettable Final Game 3 that went to an overtime. The dramatic finale showed the Tiger's true strength of actually grinding it until the fat lady sings. As the final buzzer sounded I cant help but be overwhelmed and be teary eyed as the whole floor of the Araneta Coliseum was swarming with UST's Black, Gold and White clad supporters.

During the final hymn a nostalgic sense of pride was felt by everyone especially me. The King's are back in their rightful places and the Dynasty shall rise again!

Animo Tigers! Beat Ateneo!

Black Gold Black White

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